You know, I would never have thought I would be pursuing modelling today.
Why is that exactly?
Allow me to introduce myself.
My name is Kathy Chin. I am a 21-year-old Chinese-Malaysian girl. I am 5’2 tall and I weigh around 58kg at time of writing. I have Bipolar Disorder Type II and a mild case of scoliosis. I shaved my head bald several months ago and never looked back. I also admittedly am addicted to corsetry.
When I started modelling, I weighed 55kg and had medium length hair with a side undercut. Over a few months, I cut my hair shorter and I eventually weighed 50kg.
I would be lying if I said that I was completely comfortable modelling in lingerie in the beginning.
Being nervous for shoots is one thing and feeling awkward with my own skin and body is a whole other matter.
Generally, independent photographers tend to look out for girls who fit the pages of a Victoria’s Secret catalogue, proportionate, larger bust, lean, lanky body, long flowing hair and virtually no visible fat.
And here I am ranging from an AA-cup (at my lightest weight) to an A-cup, asymmetric and straight up and down torso, stretch marks and virtually no curves. I hated having long hair because I don’t have a lot of volume, plus my high forehead makes me look like I was balding.
I used to hate myself so much, especially suffering from an emotional mental disorder made it worse. I admired the ladies on America’s Next Top Model. They seem to be the “perfect” idea of beauty in my eyes. Everything I thought I wasn’t.
These days, observing various alternative and fetish models, I have come to terms with the way I look as well as invested in certain modifications.
I believe one should have the right to choose to have plastic surgery, tattoos and piercings without others saying “love yourself for who you are!”
What if I DO love myself but just want to make some tweaks here and there that I can be pleased with?
If anything, I believe that WE should be able to choose to do what we want FOR OURSELVES, rather than others.
If I choose to listen to critics and happen to have an infinite amount of time and money, I would probably NEVER please anyone.
Too thin, too fat, too muscular, baldness doesn’t suit you, black hair doesn’t suit you, you’re too short, you’re too tall, your hair is too curly, your hair is too fine, your hair is too frizzy, and the list goes on.
Corset Guru Lucy (bishonenrancher) often gets criticism from people who say that losing weight is a better option or corsets will destroy one’s body. Did they forget how obsessed our society is with push-ups, hair dye, tanning salons, skin whitening creams, hair relaxants, high heels, most of which have their fair share of side effects as well? Somehow, corsetry gets singled out.
Most recently, I had auditioned for Asia’s Next Top Model and their entry form states that applicants should be a minimum 5’7” tall BUT they do make exceptions on a case-by-case basis and they state they’re looking to “diversify” with plus sized models this season.
Eventually, I scored an interview with one of their producers who asked this question “How would you handle the fact that you’re an alternative model competing against more commercial models?”
My answer, “Don’t you think that commercial (general public) people range from really short to tall, bald to floor-length hair, natural to colourful hair, fair to dark, skinny to plus? Alternative IS commercial, it’s just that agencies and advertisers choose not to acknowledge that and it’s about time they do.”
I might have bombed that interview but it doesn’t matter. I feel like a winner at the end of the day.
Perhaps it’s time that lingerie companies realise that their audience come in a variety of shapes, colours and sizes too.
That was a fantastic answer A++.